So, this is one of those nights where I was sitting down to finish off a post I will now be publishing later. Because I can't finish it. Because I have had a really hard night with Peanut. He's just crying and crying and then screaming and then crying some more. All because he is so overtired, but he just won't sleep. And we are so overtired too. I just don't know what to do anymore, and it's at times like this when I feel like the worst parent in the world. Nothing I can do seems to be working. And it's all well and good to have people give you all this wonderful advice, and for them to think you are probably doing something wrong, and if you just did this it would be fine, or this worked for me, or blah blah blah blah...but nothing actually works. If it was as simple as just following someone's advice, we would have done it like 18 times already. I know that this is just one night, and that it will pass, but right now in this moment, it feels so hopeless, and I feel like I am ruining my baby. If I let him cry, my heart breaks. If I try and comfort him, he screams more. And Hubby doesn't know what to do either.
This is one of those times when being a parent is hard. Like, really hard. And I am out of strategies, and out of answers.
And I wasn't going to write about this, but I wanted to be real. This is what parenting is really like sometimes. There are nights when you feel like a complete and utter failure.
I'm Amy, and I'm a Mommy with nary a clue as to how to do this whole "parenting" thing. As a former traveler, I view this as another journey, although this time without a map, a plan or a clue! We call Canada home.